Missing Lamictal, not liking Keppra yet:(

I found this sweet book Madalyn wrote at school.  She wrote it when she was on her seizure medication, Lamictal.  For the two months she was at the therapeutic dose of Lamictal, she began writing phonetically.  I was so excited, proud, and happy for her.
And then she had the allergic reaction rash to the Lamictal and we had to stop it.  Today she tried to read this book she wrote just two months ago and the letters don't form words in her brain anymore.

Like all parents, there have been a few moments that break my heart...like the moment Dr. Denney wrote hemiplegia for the first time on our checkout sheet, or the time the radiologist wrote the report on her first MRI and sat in front of us and said that word, "stroke".  Then there was the first time I was racing to the ER as her eyes darted to the side and she was unresponsive, and my head was screaming...."no no, we didn't want her to have seizures".  And today, when I watched her try to read something she knew she could read a couple of months ago. I just want to fix it all for her, but I know I can't.   I know this too will pass, and we will find another seizure medicine that works.  I just look forward to the day I look back, and this is in the past.